Billy is Writing Something

Pertama-tama, biarkan aku norak dahulu karena post pertamaku yang aku ketik via blogger di HP *oke gak penting* Sudahkah ada yang membaca tulisanku sebelummya? Tulisan terburuk, paling menurunkan semangat, sarat dengan energi negatif, dan hal-hal lainnya. Bahkan aku merasa seperti Sutardji Calzoum Bachri yang konon katanya (ibuku) kalau menulis itu dia mabuk-mabukkan dulu baru menulis. Ya, seperti itulah aku merasa saat menulis tentang tulisan sebelumnya dan aku sangat meminta maaf bila tulisan tersebut memengaruhi hidup siapapun >.< Tulisan itu adalah suatu ajang katarsis untuk diriku, ajang aku mengekspresikan semua hal yang ada di pikiranku. Kalau kata Friedrich Nietszche tulisan itu kuasa dari seorang pengarang, jadi ada motif dibalik pengarang. Motifku seutuhnya adalah suatu tempat aku mengekspresikan diriku. Jujur aku sangat lega saat bisa menumpahkan semuanya dalam tulisan. Karena aku tidak tahu cara lain untuk mengekspresikannya, yaa setidaknya aku tidak tahu pada saat

I write this because I don't know who should I tell. I write this and I let the world know I'm in a struggle. I don't know why I'm doing it. How many times I'm using the words 'don't'? I am too busy, I know this is because I am too busy. I hate being busy, because my friends hate me when I'm busy. I hate being busy, because I am easily fall asleep and it makes my friends angry. I am being threatened by my own busyness. I am tired, I know I am tired. I hate being tired, because people hates me when I'm tired. When I'm tired, I'm just an useless person. I'm nobody for everybody when I'm tired. I am being threatened. A person threatened me. Threatened me because of a small mistake. Well for me it's a small mistake. Unfortunately, that's not a small mistake for that person. I am being threatened and I'm scared. I hate what I wrote here. There is no positive energy from this post. I hate it. I hate when I say the wo

I've made up my mind, Don't need to think it over If I'm wrong, I am right Don't need to look no further, This ain't lust I know this is love But, if I tell the world I'll never say enough 'cause it was not said to you And that's exactly what I need to do If I end up with you [Chorus] Should I give up, Or should I just keep chasin' pavements? Even if it leads nowhere Or would it be a waste Even if I knew my place Should I leave it there Should I give up, Or should I just keep chasin' pavements Even if it leads nowhere I build myself up And fly around in circles Waitin' as my heart drops And my back begins to tingle Finally, could this be it [Chorus] Or should I give up Or should I just keep chasin' pavements Even if it leads nowhere Or would it be a waste Even if I knew my place Should I leave it there Should I give up Or should I just keep chasin' pavements Even if it leads nowhere Or would